In The Name Of Allah most Gracious Most Merciful.
Allahumma solli 'ala Sayyidina Muhammad, wa 'ala ali Sayyidina Muhammad.
Alhamdulillah, with Allah's will, yesterday, I managed to attend MTAN in CFSIIUM PJ. It has been a very long time since I went there last few months. And of course, I have been missing it a lot. Very much indeed.:(
Upon arriving in CFSIIUM, Murobbina, Al Fadhil Ustaz Muhadir Bin Haji Joll who was in the middle of lecture greeted us.
"Ahlan wasahlan kepada Kak Nuradilah entum, Kak Diana..."
Allah.
***
But that is not what I am going to write about today. Rather I would like to share something on my lesson of life. Spesifically, on prayer or du'aa.
A day before entering Gombak. I had this one feeling. A very certain type of feeling. I believe it is better to be expressed as instinct. I had an instinct on 'something' which I would like to avoid as much as I could. But, somehow I kept thinking that 'that something' will befall on me somehow.
Knowing that there is no might nor power except with Allah, I prayed to Him. Sincerely prayed. With all of my heart. So that what I thought to be happened would not be happened. I was so scared that 'that something' will actually happening and that would be the last thing I have ever wanted or maybe not. I don't want it at all! Huhu. Okay. I know it get a little confusing here. But, it is okay. Slowly digest it.
After making du'aa. I have finally calmed myself. Because I know, He is As Sami'u du'aa. He listens to our du'aas. But then, it came across my mind that Allah has three ways of answering one's du'aas;
2. We don`t get what we asked for, but get something better instead.
3. We don`t get what we asked for but Allah protects us from a big calamity.
Knowing that Allah had answered my prayer in a way that He knows more what is the best for me, I later then learn to accept the fact and live with it. Although it took me tears and pain to be able to get through it, i finally did. Or maybe I'm still trying. Pray for me, please. I keep on reminding myself that there must be a silver lining behind this all that happened. And yes, I am still feeling like crying while writing/typing it down here.T.T
I have never thought Law Of Attraction would work on me this way. And after all, Allah bertindak mengikut sangkaan hamba-Nya kan. Be positive next time so that I would attract only positive things. Like what my lecturer said in our class yesterday
"A counsellor has to always be positive."
Okay. Sentap. Hehe. Insha Allah. Go go negative aura. Good things, do come to me~ Hiyark!
Just one thing before I end my entry, never lose hope to Allah. My friends have always said;
"Bukan semua yang kita nak kita akan dapat, dan bukan semua yang kita dapat adalah apa yang kita nak."
"Allah tak beri apa yang kita mahu, tapi Dia beri apa yang kita perlu."
Hakikatnya, He knows and we know not. Ingat tu. Our prayer have always been answered by Him. In a way that He knows more. Yakinlah dengan itu.:)
Okay. Dah semangat dah.^_^
May Allah bless us all.
Wallahu'alam.
