Dengan Nama Allah Yang Maha Pemurah Lagi Maha Penyayang.

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Alhamdulillah. 
Hampir siap packing barang. 
Esok dah nak bertolak. 
Tak sabar + takut + happy.

4 Rabiul Akhir 1434 H.
Genap 20 tahun.
Tak lama lagi ja.
Lap-lap peluh.

"Dear God,
How old will I be?
When the angel in black, 
will come for me?"
-Another Day, Dawud Wharnsby Ali.

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Petang ke Sungai Petani.
Beli barang-barang keperluan.
Kehendak awal lagi tolak ke tepi.

Jatuh rahang depan cashier.
Spent over RM 200.
For the first time ever. 

But, the journey was nice. 
Dah lama tak mengenyangkan mata.
Dengan hijaunya sawah bendang.
Dengan birunya langit.

"And everything in nature,
From the clouds to the rocks,
Is the piece of the puzzle of the purpose of man,
Is the piece of the peace of Islam."
-The People of The Boxes, Dawud Wharnsby Ali.

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Semalam, apabila pendulum, 
Mencapai resonance - laju berayun.
Thunderstorm melanda tanpa diduga. 
Heavy rainfall turun non-stop. 
The damage has been done. 

"I have hide here afraid like a child behind.
Truth of my thoughts that clutter my mind.

I have been looking to live.
I have been living to find.
The freedom from cages that limit my mind.

Will I scare you, upset you,
frustrate you, irate you?
Challenge your lifestyle,
Or weaken your trust.

Or will you see my efforts,
And my passionate sincerity?
Would you see just a little of yourself in me?"
-Will You Hate Me, Dawud Wharnsby Ali.


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Hati sesak, mata bengkak. 
Teringat Rooftop Rant.
Sebuah hikayat bicara bumbung.
May Allah bless Hlovate and family. 

"Adakah mereka merasakan mereka telah beriman, 
sedangkan mereka belum diuji?"
-Al Ankabut, 29:2.

Ayat pengubat lara.
When iman is put at test.

Hidup tak selalunya lawa.
Tak selalunya ada pelangi.
Kalau nak kata a bed of roses pun,
duri-durinya tetap ada. 

"Kami tidak membebani seseorang 
melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya..."
-Al Baqarah, 2:286.

Dan bila rasa,
dah sungguh-sungguh tak lalu,
hingga wishing for penamat hayat.

Narrated from Anas : Rasulullah bersabda;
'None of you should long for death
because of a calamity that had befallen him;
and if he cannot, but long for death
then berdoalah, "Ya Allah,
let me live as life is better for me,
and take my life if death is better for me."
-Sahih Bukhari.

Itupun hanya kalau,
things are too much too bear.

Mohonlah pada Allah, 
semoga dilapangkan,
dan dipermudahkan urusan.
Allah itu dekat.

"Dan apabila hamba-Ku bertanya kepadamu tentang Aku,
Maka (jawablah), bahawasanya Aku adalah dekat.
Aku mengabulkan permohonan orang yang berdoa 
apabila dia memohon kepada-Ku..."
-Al Baqarah. 2:186.

Yakinlah pada Dia. 


::If you have difficulty in moulding yourself,
so have patience when dealing with others.::